I...who always live inside my memories.
How heartbreaking it was,
I still can remember every seconds that past.
You can call me a fool,
but you cannot delete the memory away,
from my mind.

I..who live with my memories,
Am very coward.
Scared to let my heart crushed again,
to live in the same situation again,
just let it be the last time.
I couldn't front it for the next time.

I....who cherish my memories,
wanted to wash away bad memories,
just like I wash dirty clothes,
into a brand-new one.
If you know how badly I wish for that,
The wish that will never be granted.

I....who cannot live without memories,
Wanted to stay away from you.
Preventing rewinding the bad memories that we had,
everytime I see you.
I cannot blame you for all this,
But you just cannot change the way I am,
who live regarding my memories. :(

You, yes you, can I ask you something?
Who am I?
Please, this is not a weird question
Because I don't know myself either.

What am I thinking now?
What actually I want?
Why I did wrong?
Where is my old good self?

Is it interesting?
I cannot focus my mind on the thing I am supposed to do.
Everything seems to turned out  wrong way.

I want to be on a mountain
While forgetting that I am climbing a stair

I am thinking how to get to Kedah,
while I am driving to a new place I never went.

I expect everyone to notice me like everyone notice the signboard
I am jealous of that signboard above me
It is far away higher than me
It has been taken care so well
Even a tiny dust must be brushed away from it
I wonder how could I be like it
When?
Fool me
That is just a dream, so impossible
I am dreaming of being that signboard everyday
While forgetting that I am just a tiny thing.
Being hit everyday by vehicles
Yes, I am just a tiny black rock, in a sea of other rocks, making up a street.

The more I know about you   
The more hurt I feel

The more I am missing you
The more I try to forget you

The more I think why
The more complicated it is

The more I reason to hate you
The more I find you attractive

The more impossible it is
The more I think it is possible

The more I try to forget you
The more I will missing you

Here I deducing my hypothesis specially dedicated to someone who didn't even know my existence
So, it was a mistake trying to know someone which will make you fall in love with, with the fact you know it will go nowhere.

this weird feelings inside me

I don't know how to translate this feelings ryte now. I am seriously not admire him, but why do I feel "something" that is very disturbing me when I see him with other woman????tell me???why???

And why is there a different feeling between love and chemistry? I think it is different. I have crush on this one guy while I already knew that I am more compatible with the other person. and why did I choose to stick to the person I first have crush??? AAAaaaaaaa....!!!Even I know that he is least compatible with me....whyyyyyy

Manusia

Manusia sanggup berbuat apa sahaja untuk meneruskan kehidupan masing-masing. Kita semua mempunyai gaya hidup dan taraf ekonomi yang berbeza. Sepanjang hidup kita, saya pasti kita semua pernah menipu seseorang demi keuntungan dan kebaikan diri kita. Begitu juga saya. Penipuan- penipuan seperti ini adalah logik jika kita banyak melakukannya sewaktu kecil kerana fikiran kita masih belum matang. Tetapi, adalah sadis lagi menyedihkan jika kita melakukan penipuan di saat kita sudah capai umur akil baligh. Ini adalah suatu perkara yang sangat kotor.

Saya faham kita semua mempunyai alasan disebalik setiap penipuan yang kita lakukan, tetapi saya tidak boleh menerima suatu penipuan itu sekiranya perkara ini dilakukan oleh individu yang dipercayai. Saya tidak dapat membayangkan bagaimana seseorang itu sanggup menipu orang yang dikenalinya sendiri. Lagi-lagi apabila orang itu besungguh-sungguh akan perkara yang diberitahu kepadanya itu.

Saya teringat sebuah kisah dimana seorang raja mengarahkan agar rakyatnya menghamparkan permaidani agar kakinya terpelihara, tetapi adalah lebih baik jika raja itu mengusahakan agar dihasilkannya sepasang kasut yang boleh dipakainya agar kakinya tidak kotor. Dengan cara ini, dia tidak membebani rakyatnya demi kepentingannya sendiri.

I had a chance to hug TOP hahaha..felt really warmth..he has broad shoulder too.He was wearing black coat and trousers. At that time we were at the airplane stair. What the...

Then, I felt like I'm in relationship with Lee Seungi as a lover, while Eun Shi Kyung is my best friend. Also like, what the.....

Ok,just feeling to tell this...hehe

Hidup ini hanyalah kerana Allah

Aku terfikir berapa peratus dalam hidup aku ni aku beribadah kepada Allah? Berapa peratus jugak segala macam masalah dan kerja yang aku lakukan ni semata- mata kerana Allah? Astaghfirullah al- Azim. Aku telah banyak lalai daripada mengingati Kau Ya Allah.

Berapa banyak kali aku menderhaka kepada orang tua terutama ibu bapa termasuk juga nenek aku dan adik beradik aku. Rupanya Islam telah mengajar kita cara yang terbaik dalam setiap perkara.
Segala perbuatan kita didunia ini, setiap saatnya akan di soal oleh Allah kelak.

Kadangkala aku lagi menitikberatkan hal-hal dunia sehingga aku memandang ringan hal-hal agama. Contohnya, aku lebih mengutamakan mendengar lagu sedap daripada solat di awal waktu. Siapa aku? Hanyalah hamba, sehinggakan sanggup menangguh ajakan Tuhannya semata-mata kerana benda lain.

Moga Allah terus memberi hidayah-Nya kepada kami. Amin