The more I know about you
The more hurt I feel
The more I am missing you
The more I try to forget you
The more I think why
The more complicated it is
The more I reason to hate you
The more I find you attractive
The more impossible it is
The more I think it is possible
The more I try to forget you
The more I will missing you
Here I deducing my hypothesis specially dedicated to someone who didn't even know my existence
So, it was a mistake trying to know someone which will make you fall in love with, with the fact you know it will go nowhere.
Tuesday, 15 January 2013
this weird feelings inside me
I don't know how to translate this feelings ryte now. I am seriously not admire him, but why do I feel "something" that is very disturbing me when I see him with other woman????tell me???why???
And why is there a different feeling between love and chemistry? I think it is different. I have crush on this one guy while I already knew that I am more compatible with the other person. and why did I choose to stick to the person I first have crush??? AAAaaaaaaa....!!!Even I know that he is least compatible with me....whyyyyyy
And why is there a different feeling between love and chemistry? I think it is different. I have crush on this one guy while I already knew that I am more compatible with the other person. and why did I choose to stick to the person I first have crush??? AAAaaaaaaa....!!!Even I know that he is least compatible with me....whyyyyyy
Friday, 21 December 2012
Manusia
Manusia sanggup berbuat apa sahaja untuk meneruskan kehidupan masing-masing. Kita semua mempunyai gaya hidup dan taraf ekonomi yang berbeza. Sepanjang hidup kita, saya pasti kita semua pernah menipu seseorang demi keuntungan dan kebaikan diri kita. Begitu juga saya. Penipuan- penipuan seperti ini adalah logik jika kita banyak melakukannya sewaktu kecil kerana fikiran kita masih belum matang. Tetapi, adalah sadis lagi menyedihkan jika kita melakukan penipuan di saat kita sudah capai umur akil baligh. Ini adalah suatu perkara yang sangat kotor.
Saya faham kita semua mempunyai alasan disebalik setiap penipuan yang kita lakukan, tetapi saya tidak boleh menerima suatu penipuan itu sekiranya perkara ini dilakukan oleh individu yang dipercayai. Saya tidak dapat membayangkan bagaimana seseorang itu sanggup menipu orang yang dikenalinya sendiri. Lagi-lagi apabila orang itu besungguh-sungguh akan perkara yang diberitahu kepadanya itu.
Saya teringat sebuah kisah dimana seorang raja mengarahkan agar rakyatnya menghamparkan permaidani agar kakinya terpelihara, tetapi adalah lebih baik jika raja itu mengusahakan agar dihasilkannya sepasang kasut yang boleh dipakainya agar kakinya tidak kotor. Dengan cara ini, dia tidak membebani rakyatnya demi kepentingannya sendiri.
Saya faham kita semua mempunyai alasan disebalik setiap penipuan yang kita lakukan, tetapi saya tidak boleh menerima suatu penipuan itu sekiranya perkara ini dilakukan oleh individu yang dipercayai. Saya tidak dapat membayangkan bagaimana seseorang itu sanggup menipu orang yang dikenalinya sendiri. Lagi-lagi apabila orang itu besungguh-sungguh akan perkara yang diberitahu kepadanya itu.
Saya teringat sebuah kisah dimana seorang raja mengarahkan agar rakyatnya menghamparkan permaidani agar kakinya terpelihara, tetapi adalah lebih baik jika raja itu mengusahakan agar dihasilkannya sepasang kasut yang boleh dipakainya agar kakinya tidak kotor. Dengan cara ini, dia tidak membebani rakyatnya demi kepentingannya sendiri.
Tuesday, 4 December 2012
I had a chance to hug TOP hahaha..felt really warmth..he has broad shoulder too.He was wearing black coat and trousers. At that time we were at the airplane stair. What the...
Then, I felt like I'm in relationship with Lee Seungi as a lover, while Eun Shi Kyung is my best friend. Also like, what the.....
Ok,just feeling to tell this...hehe
Then, I felt like I'm in relationship with Lee Seungi as a lover, while Eun Shi Kyung is my best friend. Also like, what the.....
Ok,just feeling to tell this...hehe
Sunday, 25 November 2012
Hidup ini hanyalah kerana Allah
Aku terfikir berapa peratus dalam hidup aku ni aku beribadah kepada Allah? Berapa peratus jugak segala macam masalah dan kerja yang aku lakukan ni semata- mata kerana Allah? Astaghfirullah al- Azim. Aku telah banyak lalai daripada mengingati Kau Ya Allah.
Berapa banyak kali aku menderhaka kepada orang tua terutama ibu bapa termasuk juga nenek aku dan adik beradik aku. Rupanya Islam telah mengajar kita cara yang terbaik dalam setiap perkara.
Segala perbuatan kita didunia ini, setiap saatnya akan di soal oleh Allah kelak.
Kadangkala aku lagi menitikberatkan hal-hal dunia sehingga aku memandang ringan hal-hal agama. Contohnya, aku lebih mengutamakan mendengar lagu sedap daripada solat di awal waktu. Siapa aku? Hanyalah hamba, sehinggakan sanggup menangguh ajakan Tuhannya semata-mata kerana benda lain.
Moga Allah terus memberi hidayah-Nya kepada kami. Amin
Berapa banyak kali aku menderhaka kepada orang tua terutama ibu bapa termasuk juga nenek aku dan adik beradik aku. Rupanya Islam telah mengajar kita cara yang terbaik dalam setiap perkara.
Segala perbuatan kita didunia ini, setiap saatnya akan di soal oleh Allah kelak.
Kadangkala aku lagi menitikberatkan hal-hal dunia sehingga aku memandang ringan hal-hal agama. Contohnya, aku lebih mengutamakan mendengar lagu sedap daripada solat di awal waktu. Siapa aku? Hanyalah hamba, sehinggakan sanggup menangguh ajakan Tuhannya semata-mata kerana benda lain.
Moga Allah terus memberi hidayah-Nya kepada kami. Amin
Friday, 23 November 2012
..and there it happened
The one that I really hate just happened, i don't know how to describe my feelings right now. Now, everything wouldn't be the same. I don't know it is a good thing or is a bad thing. Me, myself, I can't change myself to someone I'm not neither anyone else can. But what happened if someone who also difficult to change himself, wanted other people to change to the way that he can tolerate.
He knew I'm weak at talking
He knew I'm weak at confronting
He knew I'm nobody
He knew I'm useless
He knew my passion
But then he used all my weakness to CONFRONT me!!!
How sad can you imagine I feel.
The one that I always think of, to share the burden together so he can feel relief even for a second, the one that I ALWAYS THINK OF DAYS AND NIGHT to think of how to make things better, didn't even let me say a word.
The same things that you point the fault to me, is exactly the same things that you've done to me that I kept it silently in my heart, so that nothing can fall us apart.
Can you imagine how it would make me HURT by saying I HATE you.
It is not fair that you told other people about me when you didn't even know the truth.
When you already have tones of back up people, while me having none.
This is what you chose, I can't let you and I don't even want to beg you to stay, because I guarantee one day whenever you have problems at other place, you will remember the good things I gave to you. I hope you can get someone better than me, and not someone worst. But if you got someone worst, I hope you can learn everything is not always be perfect. Sometimes we have to sacrifice a little bit of our heart to get more. By just throwing away the heart, you just commit suicide.
He knew I'm weak at talking
He knew I'm weak at confronting
He knew I'm nobody
He knew I'm useless
He knew my passion
But then he used all my weakness to CONFRONT me!!!
How sad can you imagine I feel.
The one that I always think of, to share the burden together so he can feel relief even for a second, the one that I ALWAYS THINK OF DAYS AND NIGHT to think of how to make things better, didn't even let me say a word.
The same things that you point the fault to me, is exactly the same things that you've done to me that I kept it silently in my heart, so that nothing can fall us apart.
Can you imagine how it would make me HURT by saying I HATE you.
It is not fair that you told other people about me when you didn't even know the truth.
When you already have tones of back up people, while me having none.
This is what you chose, I can't let you and I don't even want to beg you to stay, because I guarantee one day whenever you have problems at other place, you will remember the good things I gave to you. I hope you can get someone better than me, and not someone worst. But if you got someone worst, I hope you can learn everything is not always be perfect. Sometimes we have to sacrifice a little bit of our heart to get more. By just throwing away the heart, you just commit suicide.
Saturday, 10 November 2012
I LOVE U
I : I LOVE YOU. Yes, you, no no, you, yes you...
M: Do I know you? or..do you know me?
I : I don't think you know me, but I know you. The only thing is I don't know you really well yet.
M: Oh, and so what make you like me then?
I : I don't know, since childhood I already like you. You did make me suffer A LOT when making decision whether to just stick on you or just give you up.
M : I didn't know that but I know I am popular nowadays, but I am really having high standards of qualification. Do you have all that?
I : I don't think I have that yet. But I'm preparing now. I should be more hardworking and diligent to pass your target. I know we can be together one day later but as for now, let me practice and learn a lot so I can treat you well. We can be partners.
M : Ok then, we'll see. Good luck.
p/s I= me, M= Medicine :P
M: Do I know you? or..do you know me?
I : I don't think you know me, but I know you. The only thing is I don't know you really well yet.
M: Oh, and so what make you like me then?
I : I don't know, since childhood I already like you. You did make me suffer A LOT when making decision whether to just stick on you or just give you up.
M : I didn't know that but I know I am popular nowadays, but I am really having high standards of qualification. Do you have all that?
I : I don't think I have that yet. But I'm preparing now. I should be more hardworking and diligent to pass your target. I know we can be together one day later but as for now, let me practice and learn a lot so I can treat you well. We can be partners.
M : Ok then, we'll see. Good luck.
p/s I= me, M= Medicine :P
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